DAY 90: GRATITUDE/TRUTH!

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I’ve been working Truth all week. It stings a little. I’m not a dishonest person, I’ve said to myself, the dashboard of my car, my mother. But the truth is, really, that I am not always truthful. I skirt the edges of a deep and perfect commitment to the truth mostly because it hurts a lot, sometimes, to be there, and I just don’t want to do it. So I suffer, needlessly, separated from my True Self because of my own stubborn, sly intransigence.

As I drove home the moon was incandescent off the lake. I wanted to stop and peer over the edge of the bank and take a look at my face in the light reflected and manifest a more buoyant truth for myself; something less edgy, softer, easier to absorb. But I didn’t, because I knew that no matter how inconsolable my ego chose to be, my life was meant to be lived exactly as I was living it

There’s gratitude in the begrudging acknowledgement of that impervious, irreproachable, irrefutable truth. I sigh into it; softening, accepting, bearing witness. It’s not easy, but  it’s living; alive, heart broken wide-open, juicy flowing energetic me. There’s a lot of love there, swirling, co-inhering and glimmering with my truth. I think I’ll embrace it ferociously. It’s time.

 

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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2 Responses to DAY 90: GRATITUDE/TRUTH!

  1. Karen Mayer LOENSER says:

    I just love these Sue. Keep them coming. You are on a wonderful journey.

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