gratitude 3:17,:16

I arrive broken open. The room, familiar, unkempt, empty, a safe haven. I roll out my mat , set up the jukebox, cue up Pandora and exhale. It’s uncanny to ritualize a pre-beginning, such as it is, such as I am, suchness unraveling upon itself.

I’m thinking back to the conversation I just had with G, my youngest, so much achiness around my heart as I extoll his virtues to himself and he mimics me back regaling me with mine, so much unsaid, I feel. And yet in spite of all of it he is such an awesome person, thanking me for helping him to get into his first choice college, even though we both know it was all him.

It can be tender to love others, love oneself, feel it all and love ferociously anyway. But that’s my broken open life, the path I have chosen, the wavering world that wobbles around me is my greatest honesty maker. “Be who you are,” it whispers through the muted afternoon sunlight. “Everything that you have always been is ignited from the inside, fired up through your karuna, expressing itself in your infinite wonder and the hope that in that connection there is belonging and in belonging is an equanimity so grand that the enoughness of life transforms, inspires and surpasses all understanding, always

Dave walks in at 5:55. “Susan, this yoga thing has changed my life.” “Dave, you’re unfurling like a flower.” He smiles. Both of us broken open, we begin.


About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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1 Response to Day 77: LAYERED GRATITUDE…

  1. Linda R Neff says:

    Unfurled and present. What an awesome state of wonderfulness. xoxo


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