The sun shine slanted through the windows haphazardly this morning; rays all askew, a reflection of the mind chatter that followed. I am always amazed by the frenetic energy of a new Healing and Releasing Samskaras workshop, so much expectation mixed in with a large dollop of tender pain, held breaths can be heard. It’s a beginning, and a launch into the vastness of the great unknown that suggests healing, transformation and expansion; the door opens, tentative steps toward the lightness of “beingness” gently reveal.
How awesome, I think to myself, as I try to tamp down my natural over-exuberance to reflect the sobriety of the primary witness. As I launch into a conversation about the concept of “avidya;” a separation from the True Self, I can barely contain my enthusiasm for the journey that we are about to embark upon. “Now the practice of yoga begins,” I think to myself as I vainly try to convey the power of present moment through the breath while earnestly conveying calm.
It’s funny….I’m funny, in spite of the seeming seriousness of the moment.
Samskaras are negative energy or scars around the heart. The release of them involves trusting the spaciousness created by not knowing. A beginner’s mind allows for a trusting of the don’t know. And it is within this space, rather ironically, where a new wisdom and fresh insights can arise, and a great, grand and gracious world becomes not only discoverable, potentially possible, but replete with wonder.
I tamp down my giddiness and take a deep breath, and slowly allow the exhale to soften me.
Everyone’s a beginner, always. And within that revelation the air starts to settle and the deep work manifests mysteriously, unfathomably, at its own pace.