DAY 30: IMPERFECT GRATITUDE!

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I’ve been humbled by my own unintentional hypocrisy today; undone, I am stunned to learn that there is still so much that I have yet to learn. What is it within me that revels in the answer so much more than the process; the sound of my own voice declaring one more indisputable truth, rather than the silence that just sitting can provide, patiently listening, waiting, still?

The good news is I don’t really want to come up with any kind of answer anymore. Some day’s I am just going to be an asshat, and that’s it; no one got hurt, my four kids still love me, Bevie, bless her heart, made me a special sauteed scallop dinner. The light within me, my True Self, continues to shine brightly.  I’m no less magnificent than I was the day before.

So, welcome previously indiscernible rough edges, embarrassing jagged patches, sometimes uncontrollable outbursts, the misplaced for emphasis F-word, the over-conjecturing, any supplicating, officious, offered by me, advice. I accept all of these tight, tender, tenacious me moments as invitations to bring new breath to my own shimmering inner brilliance; to practice self-care, believe in self-love, lean into self-forgiveness. Such is the nature of my own perfectly imperfect imperfection.

 

 

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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One Response to DAY 30: IMPERFECT GRATITUDE!

  1. Linda R Neff says:

    Here’s to being perfect perfect in each of our glorious imperfections! xoxo

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