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I’m lying on the couch, corn pillow askew, aching all over from overdoing it in the work department. Bevie has made a lemon cake, Betty Crocker style, and she is earnestly plying me with a piece, extolling its leanness, promising me longevity, unknown happiness, world peace. I say no. Thank you, but no. Fortunately, she’s cool with it.

It’s only Tuesday but I’ve already amassed a week’s worth of No’s. How fabulous. How freeing, I’ve grown. And for tonight that’s good enough. I can splash around in the juiciness of being me. I’m not afraid. I’m not focusing on outcomes. I’m leaning into the yes, even though, honestly, the vast potential, if I think about it too much, could totally overwhelm me.

It feels good to be me in the No, accepting the open door invitation of the yes. I’m grateful for this messy, lovely, sometimes hard to wrap my head around life. And I’ll see what comes, it always does, inevitably. So much better when I bear witness to it, surprised.

From the back of the house, I hear Bevie bringing in the dogs, whispering sweet nothings, loudly wishing me good night. “Will you be here when I get up?,” she asks. “Yes, of course. Let’s share a piece of cake for breakfast.” We both laugh. Her door closes. I welcome the night.

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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2 Responses to Day 26: GRATITUDE AND THE BIG NO!

  1. Linda R Neff says:

    Let’s share a piece of cake for breakfast – a beautiful though to end the night on and to welcome a new day of yes and no’s. Thank you Susan. xoxo


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