DAY 14: WHEN GRATITUDE FEELS LIKE WORK…

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Here’s what I say a lot: “Is it ok if I put my thumb in your pelvic crease?” No one, not a  single person, not even modest Minnesotans in front of other modest Minnesotans, has ever said no. And I’ve been doing this work for a long time, with a healthy dose of uplifting success, people genuinely feel better after working with me, more connected to their True Selves.

Until today, until my mother.

“Get that damn strap away from me,” she says, vehemently wiping out almost a decade’s worth of positive work. “See the pain as resistance and accept the invitation to its opposite,” I suggest softly. “And breathe”….Peace is really elusive as Bevie holds her breath at the end of the inhale right after swearing at me.

So I go for broke: “You live with this pain all day every day, don’t you want to release it?” The response is yes, but the total answer humbles. “Sus, sometimes gratitude is work.” I agree, because what else can I do, I’ve been there, I’ve felt that, I’ve  wanted to be someone else…

We laugh, Bevie and I, somehow surprised by how much of who we truly are is reflected outward, through one another and then inward, straight through our hearts. Mother and daughter, partners in the best sense of the word; making space, accepting the revelations, confronting, cultivating, witnessing a new peace.

Bevie lies back on the mat one more time: She tries hard to look comfortable  “Ok,” I say.  “Here we go….”

 

 

 

 

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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One Response to DAY 14: WHEN GRATITUDE FEELS LIKE WORK…

  1. Linda R Neff says:

    Wow. The connection and the truth. Powerful.

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