1_10_leaveurheadathomeSo in my line of living, the beginning of the year becomes a time to hunker down and get into the mode of acceptance from within rather than analyzing all the lacks. I must say, right off the bat that the statement is a lot easier to write on the page than it is to put into practice. I have noticed within myself, and oftentimes with all of my Integrative Yoga Therapy customers, and even just friends and colleagues, a hyper-criticism of self in mind and body that suggests a serious spiritual disconnect.

Why do I (we) have such a strong inclination toward the need to change at this time of year, and, more importantly for me, why is that change in and of itself so inherently connected to a belief that life will be better, grander, fill in your own blank, if it is manifested? I’m honestly not sure because quite clearly that is never the way deep meaningful transformation has worked for me, and I’m not sure that change for change’s sake ever really brought me any of the gifts that I had hoped it would when I thought getting thinner or moving house or having a new boyfriend presented itself as an exciting vehicle for change in my mind.

The yoking of mind body and spirit, and this is the truest expression of yoga for me, always begins and ends with the breath:

Yoga is also cultivated through the awareness of the breath, especially the spontaneous stillness experienced upon exhalation.” Patanjali, 1.34

My ego releases when I focus on deep diaphragmatic breathing; inhaling from the bottom of the pelvis to the top of the heart and expanding. The exhale takes the breath in the opposite direction and suggests a softening into that initial expanded possibility. And I begin again. Inhale through the nostrils and exhale with a Ha release through the mouth.

When I let go of my mind, and enter into the whispery, effervescent and unfathomable realm of my subtle heart, I awaken from within; my physical body relaxes and I am invited  into a relationship with myself where peace is the umpire and a deep and limitless love can be found.

And this is my choice today, and my wish and hope for tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow; that the deep, abiding and blissful Spirit of me will always lead the way, leaning anew toward that fresh and light-filled transcendence.

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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