DAY 120: IF IN DOUBT, CALL BEV BEV! #mother’sdayevemoment

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So I’m driving home from a date with a guy. It’s been disappointing in that way that you feel when you show up hungry for dinner and order the wrong thing to eat. I’m ruminating down 287, chastising myself for audaciously wasting my time. I’m about to go into full-blown over analysis of the situation in my own head when I decide to call my mother instead.

Now I will admit to being completely lucky. I’m 50 years old, and my mother is only 74, and totally hip. She answers the phone at 9;45.
“The date was kind of a bust”, I tell her. “So what”, she says. I laugh. Bevie’s like, “Look, I know you probably want to spend some time talking about this, but honestly, who really cares. Sometimes, dates just aren’t that much fun.” I’m thinking to myself, what the hell does she really know, she was married for 53 years. How can she even remember the mind-numbing awkwardness of early dating?

I begin to protest and she continues, “Please don’t spend a lot of time on this Sus, it’s just not worth it.” And suddenly, right in the middle of 287, I’m having what feels like a million flashbacks to all of the times in my life where my mother has been there for me and rather gently guided me out of the murky darkness of the inside of my head into, well, more like a real life perspective. I’m awash in the gentleness of her spirit, the sweet, sweet love she feels for me and I decide, just like that, to let the whole damn thing go.

“Yeah, you’re right,” I say to her.

“I know,” she echoes right back.

“Who’s picking me up for Mother’s Day Lunch at the Claremont tomorrow?, she asks.

“I’ll call you in the morning”, I say.

We hang up together and I drive the rest of the way home, content.

I’m going to try to be cool now: #perfect#mother’sdayeve#moment.

In deep deep gratitude to Beautiful Bev Bev.

Big Loving Namaste!

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Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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2 Responses to DAY 120: IF IN DOUBT, CALL BEV BEV! #mother’sdayevemoment

  1. Yes, I remember Bev. She was a very hip Mom and also very cool to have as a next-door neighbor !!! Please wish her a VERY Happy Mother’s Day from Liz on Sunset Drive. Lots of love!


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