I started playing Eva Cassidy in the studio space during some of my private sessions, and once again, this song blew me away and got me to start reflecting on the nature of acceptance and how much the practice of it has changed my life.
Let me state from the outset that I’m a really willful woman. I struggle with wanting my own way, not all of the time, but most of the time; that attitude, I have learned the hard way, never ever pays off. So quick acceptance has often eluded me and complete acceptance has certainly been a murky, painful ride for some of the harder lessons in my life.
The basics came in to play a lot: Letting go and Letting God, Keeping it Simple, How Important is it?, Easy Does it. I sat for a long time in the wisdom of those slogans, hoping in some kind of mighty magical osmosis fashion, the implicit serenity of them would soothe my unquiet mind, repair the jagged wounds on my heart. And they did, along with yoga and deep soulful honest conversations with a lot of really awesome people in my life. With time.
As a result, I began to trust myself again, and it is within that deep and sometimes edgy trust that I find myself writing this post today. Acceptance, although painful, is the key to my good and gracious life. The practice of it has, much like my asana practice on the mat, made me more supple, energetic, able to breathe through the brief spurts of resistance and pain. And grow, a lot!
And most importantly, I am stronger, way, way more loving and gentle; living my life on life’s terms. I did lie myself down over the proverbial bridge, and I re-emerged transformed and made anew by the vastness of the experience.
livebig365nj.com launches on Friday……and I’m going on a second date with a really sweet guy.
Big Loving Namaste!