DAY 93 AND 94: DESIRE AND THE 50 YEAR OLD YOGI!

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When I was at Kripalu in August doing my month long training for my 500 hours, I had a private session with my teacher and mentor Maria Kali Ma. Maria is a unique and funky healer, extremely gifted and innovative. She has taught me a  lot about the body and holding patterns and how to ease people away from pain.

On a Thursday afternoon, mid-week three, Maria’s focus was completely on me. There was, unfortunately, a lot that emerged in that session as she began to coax me out of my stuff. She outed my right side holding pattern, and spoke to me about my life. It was a powerful experience.

Tonight, while I was out for drinks and snacks with some of my guy friends, I reflected on one of the most important things she said to me during that session: “Susan, you will have one more big love in your life.” And I believe I will.

My life has a way of spiraling in upon itself and outward again, kind of like a lotus flower. I am enjoying going out with new men, having fun and being me, feeling desire, leaning in to this rather new and refreshing aspect of my life. I am, after all, a woman with a full and ever-expanding sense of self .

It is a good feeling to know that I am embarking on the journey that will manifest that next big love. I had a great time with the men that invited me out tonight. It was lovely to be wanted, to be who I am, to call the shots, to fully feel how completely my life has changed, re-focused, and begun to build anew.

I’m proud of me and deeply grateful as well. Love is swirling all around me and  I’m leaning into these new and exciting encounters. I remain humble, but alert. There’s so much Big living and Big loving to come…….

Big Loving Namaste!

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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