When I was at Kripalu in August doing my month long training for my 500 hours, I had a private session with my teacher and mentor Maria Kali Ma. Maria is a unique and funky healer, extremely gifted and innovative. She has taught me a lot about the body and holding patterns and how to ease people away from pain.
On a Thursday afternoon, mid-week three, Maria’s focus was completely on me. There was, unfortunately, a lot that emerged in that session as she began to coax me out of my stuff. She outed my right side holding pattern, and spoke to me about my life. It was a powerful experience.
Tonight, while I was out for drinks and snacks with some of my guy friends, I reflected on one of the most important things she said to me during that session: “Susan, you will have one more big love in your life.” And I believe I will.
My life has a way of spiraling in upon itself and outward again, kind of like a lotus flower. I am enjoying going out with new men, having fun and being me, feeling desire, leaning in to this rather new and refreshing aspect of my life. I am, after all, a woman with a full and ever-expanding sense of self .
It is a good feeling to know that I am embarking on the journey that will manifest that next big love. I had a great time with the men that invited me out tonight. It was lovely to be wanted, to be who I am, to call the shots, to fully feel how completely my life has changed, re-focused, and begun to build anew.
I’m proud of me and deeply grateful as well. Love is swirling all around me and I’m leaning into these new and exciting encounters. I remain humble, but alert. There’s so much Big living and Big loving to come…….
Big Loving Namaste!