Over the last two weeks I’ve been mulling over a really important decision that will afford and allow me to take my business and my life into a whole new realm of opportunity for 2013. I’ve done a lot of soul-searching, spent more than a couple of hours talking things over with trusted friends, prayed about it, tried to meditate around it, sought out the valued counsel of all four of my children. To be honest, it is a decison that deserved as much attention as it has gotten; it’s Big and Bold and exactly what I had asked for…..it took me two weeks to trust it!
Embracing the ferocity of living in the possibilities inherent in the impossible is a new thing for me. I don’t feel very comfortable. I’m a lot of things that I’ve written about all year; vulnerable, wide-open, living from the heart, staying in the questions without knowing the answers (that’s a really Big one). I feel as if I’m living someone else’s life; a literal WTF is going on here….And yet, I know that accepting the invitation to live in the next Big moment and begin the next phase of my new Big life is the only real choice I have. I incline toward the shimmery light of being all that I can be. I believe in it, truly and deeply. To turn back now isn’t remotely part of my DNA.
All year this journey of living Big has really been a slow process of unraveling from the old me to the very essence of the new me. I’ve worked hard, sometimes battled a lot of self-doubt, learned how to stop asking the question why and struggled, sometimes mightly, to stay connected to my heart and say yes. And the real kicker is that in 2013, with a little more shine and a lot more heart, I am invited to begin the whole damn process again.
This is life lived to its fullest: I step into the light of my most authentic Being and in that moment, Be Me; in love with the whole messy experience of it, expressing my best, awash in the lushness of it, staying in the power of now, in love with, well me.
That’s everything and that’s living big…. And within that solid lovely truth, each impossible is merely a doorway to the next possible. And that is where this spiraly journey continues to take me; in all its heartfelt shimmeriness, over and over and over again: I humbly accept.