Hopefully this whole thing will make sense! I received this quote a couple of days ago in my e-mail from a group called “Higher Awareness.” It described aspects of the old to new me transformation with such accuracy that I decided to share it here:
“WE SEEK TO CONTROL OUR LIVES WHEN WE DO NOT TRUST, WHEN WE DO NOT LOVE. Our ego, perceiving itself to be vulnerable and insecure, uses control in an effort to protect itself.
At the root of our need to control, we find FEAR. It may be fear of the unknown. Fear of not coping. Fear of loss. Or possibly even fear of looking stupid. And as our efforts to control other people and events invariably fail, our fear increases.
Trust, on the other hand, is a quality of the soul. While control is a tool of the mind, TRUST AND FAITH ARE ASPECTS OF THE HEART. Trust comes with the deep knowing that we are spiritual beings in physical bodies. When we trust enough in life to give up our need to control, we can relax and open to the flow of energy in our lives. This brings peace of mind.”
I’ve spent the weekend releasing myself, through hours of cranio-sacral techniques and applications, from the final vestiges of the old Susan Perry. She was a really good friend, who had kind of shadowed the new me for a while; whispering in my ear certain old familiar phrases, occasionally reminding me that my sad story still had not manifested a truly happy ending, strongly suggesting that I was far from the complete woman that I represented myself to be. She was strong, oftentimes convincing, and very, very familiar. I liked her, but I’d gotten really sick and tired of her fear.
This weekend I spent a lot of time twitching uncontrollably on a massage table. Now I realize that off the bat this statement isn’t the most magical way to represent some really cool cranio-sacral therapies that I learned. Nevertheless, my body, initally, was so replete with some deeply ingrained old fears that when invited to release, it all kind of departed fairly convulsively.
It’s actually quite an amazing process to breathe into places within the body that are being subtly and energetically coaxed into action. As my cranial rythmns were gently modulated and my sacrum quietly adjusted, my body slowly began to truly relax and transform. And I let go of a lot of sadness and grief that lived inside of me that I really no longer needed. After a day and a half of shaking on the table, the unconcious movement began to subside and I realized that I had evolved and changed, literally shedding and pushing out physical and emotional trauma that no longer served me in any way shape or form.
There wasn’t a lot of sadness over the loss of the old Susan Perry. In fact, I thanked her as the good friend that she had been. After all, she carried me through a lot of really adverse stuff, some awful, painful times. I told her it was time for her to rest. She no longer needed to work so hard to protect me, keep me alive even, allow me to live with fear and mistrust. I’m moving on, even more deeply in love with the me I’ve become. Welcome Susan, you are awesome!
I’m humble and grateful to this fantastically energizing and enlightening therapy that has so serendipitously entered into my life . There’s so much good work to be done, so many of my customers who will be magically released by these beautiful applications, Let me know if there is anything I can do to help any of you.