Hurricane Sandy Eve in the great state of New Jersey: We are, unfortunately going to get slammed with the eye of the hurricane coming ashore, in about 10 hours, only 40 miles from where I live. The whole state has been, in my opinion, eerily calm today. Every single time great puffs of air bust forth out of nowhere, I’ve watched people look up and then glance out toward an unknown horizon. Great piles of multi-colored leaves, and small, swirl endlessly across lawns, sidewalks, the street outside my condo complex; mimicking, rather ironically, the shape of the actual storm to come.
It’s awesome out and weirdly quiet. I’ve gone about my day as usual, buffeted by this new energy to reach out further, lean more heavily into a faith and trust in not only a Power greater than myself, but also the great and fierce power I feel exists within me. The feeling has left me breathless at several times during the day, so much so that I found myself having to inhale really deeply in the middle of a sentence I was saying out loud, in order to complete it properly. Something is happening, and I have no idea what it is, yet; but I truly believe in my heart of hearts, really deeply, that something profound is shifting in me.
And unlike previous moments of growth and evolution in my life, I’m not messing with this one in any way at all. I’m really and truly just going with the flow and trying to remain humble to the fact that I feel as if many extra volts of electricity, or life force or spiritual energy are vibrating through my body at such a pace that if my Spirit burst forth out of my breastbone at any moment I woulde not be surprised. It’s giddy and gracious at the same time to feel these feelings so intensely. Thank God I am not taking anything for granted.
All that having been said, none of it would mean anything if I did not have so many wonderful people in my life, supporting me, loving me and upholding me, just because I am me. And for me these connections are the absolute best of life. I feel my heart contract in anticipation of the euphoric feeling that accompanies any hug, gentle smile, simple text or easy-going laugh that has come my way today especially, and quite honestly any day in-between.
There is no possible way I could ever deny the inter-connectivity of all things, every life, the simplest to the most complex. And it is within these kinds of connections that miraculous and magical things can happen; much like the leaves pushed upward by the early storm breezes, seemingly swirling out of nowhere. I’m a part of it; open-armed and wide-hearted, feeling it all deep within me.
Amen to the Great Big Stuff of Life!