No matter how many times I try to shape it differently, if I’m honest, I have to confess that I spent an inordinate amount of time in my life swimming upstream, over-efforting, actually believing that I could will the outcomes of almost any situation that involved me. It was crazy and tiring and caused me to have a kind of worn and disheveled relationship to myself and others, at best.

The truth is I was scared, bone deep, into the very fiber of my being afraid that somehow, really for some unfathomable reason, I just wasn’t capable. Of what, I couldn’t really tell you as I was always so frantically trying to meet the next accomplishment, scale the upcoming wall, barrel through inflexible resistance… life to it’s absolute fu*king fullest. If it reads fun, on any level, I can assure you, in deep gratitude and awesome hindsight, it absolutely sucked.

Today, however, is different. I began to see that the effort of changing the life that existed around me might come to better use if I directed it toward changing the attitudes and ingrained belief patterns that kept me completely disconnected from my truest self. It took time and a lot of sweaty painful acceptance work, and yet what emerged was the bright light of my inner being.

Oftentimes with my customers, I use a phrase that perfectly encapsulates my fresh relationship to my most authentic self: Breathe, Relax, Feel, Watch, Allow. “Be the seer”, my teacher Joseph Le Page would gently advise me during my month at Kripalu. “Let it happen.” Breathe, Relax, Feel, Watch, Allow. (It bears repeating).

I am a loving witness to my own best life; perfect in its daily expression, offering daily gifts, transcendent lessons. I am afresh and awash in the gentle vibrational motion of the loving embrace of the Universe. There for me always, opening me up tenderly, manifesting love. I need only allow life’s gentle unwavering expansion; expressing me toward a grace and love so deep, unrelentingly honest, passionate and limitless that my life then becomes something akin to wondrous magic.

Big Namaste!

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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2 Responses to DAY 287: LETTING LIFE HAPPEN!

  1. jebrahim118 says:

    WOW! You did some inner-work there, girl! Inspiring insight. Did my “daily practice” this morn and feel MUCH better…see you at small group yoga tomorrow!


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