When I was studying for my Masters Degree in Theology, I came across a poem that had the line: “All that we do is touched with ocean, yet we remain on the shores of what we know.” At the time, I think now it was about 12 years ago, I loved that quote. It spurred me on to write great big beautiful papers; I so wanted to be the ocean!
Today, I ran across this Rumi quote and it caused me to reflect on my own journey of self-growth and self-discovery. It’s awesome to feel beautiful on the inside and be able to express that beauty out towards others; to witness how this authentic and lovely me is able to believe in herself in Big, Bold and Bodacious ways. I’m quite proud of how far I’ve come since that first ocean quote and how strongly I am now able to connect with the concept of being the whole ocean in one tiny drop.
The relationships I have in my life are transforming in ways that I believe are the best representations of how I’ve become that ocean. I have a lot of really good friends; men and women who without hesitation have my back and my best interest at heart. And I trust them.
Tonight I had dinner with 6 guy friends, I was the only girl, we just hung out and ate and enjoyed one another’s company. I snuck sweet potato fries and got a piece of pizza to go along with my steak salad and hung in there with the best of them. It’s really awesome to have male friends who are just really good guys. They are sweet and complimentary and genuinely nice to hang with….I’m grateful to be upheld so graciously, no strings attached. It’s honest to God, really compelling and tender and true.
I’ve changed. I believe in myself deeply and can be in relationships now as my true and authentic self. I’ve become the ocean! And much like that great big body of water the love I feel is immense, unfathomable and endless; washing wave upon wave upon wave upon wave on the shore of the me that I used to know.