Today was the last formal day of training for my Yoga Therapist Certification. It has been a wild and crazy ride here at Kripalu; and as usual, I have so many new and fabulous applications to incorporate into my life and my business that I feel as if I am a shaken up soda bottle waiting to explode. Of course I have a million ideas and I believe all of them to be valid and there is so much wonderful work to be done…..The loop in my head is a compelling aphrodisiac and for a few moments this afternoon, I attached to the power behind that all too familiar feeling.
It’s tempting to believe in the hubristic thoughts in my mind, to connect to my ego and feel like I just know, well, better than everyone else. But I resist that inclination now, and recognize it as a default pattern of behavior, most likely associated with its reverse; a fear of not knowing enough. I’ve had reinforced to me at Kripalu the really adverse negative health effects that can manifest as a result of holding onto chronic negative stress patterns. I’ve blogged about a few of them in relation to myself over this month, and I have borne witness, in my own personal and professional experiences, to the painful bodily symptoms and injuries that can manifest as a result of paying to much attention to the mind.
So, I’m beginning to wear life more loosely: Accept that there is so much that I don’t know; give with a loving and abundant heart; trust in a Power much much greater than myself; express gratitude each and every day for the abundance that compounds as a result of practicing the first three principles; and believe that tomorrow, and this is just a minor example, when I leave Kripalu and head back down I87 South towards New Jersey, the skin that I am in will express outwardly and inwardly the positive and enthusiastic effervescence I have for being awake and alive and in the moment. Out of my head into my heart, craving a Big Mac, (it’s a once a year thing, honest to God) and probably stopping somewhere along 287 to get one. I hope it’s balanced out by all of the kale.
I’m living Big and loose and lovely. There’s so much awesome work to be done.
Watch out New Jersey, here I come!