DAY 234: SELF-SABOTAGE AND THE 49 YEAR OLD YOGI!

You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened….or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.

Tupac

 

So, basically, I need to get over myself, get out of my head sometimes, and breathe, fully and properly; and there are some beautiful therapies that I have already put into my daily yoga practice here that have helped to relieve the stress and begun to undo the pain in my throat, pecs, shoulders and traps  that has emerged off and on for over 20 years. Such is the power of yoga and Yoga therapy. I am extremely grateful.

I believe that part of this stress emanates from the way in which I unconciously perceive myself. I over-effort, or rather believe I need to try really hard sometimes to be, well basically, the true and authentic me. Where does this come from?  I certainly could come up with a lot of fairly justifiable or at least smart-sounding theories; but the truth is I’m kind of with Tupac on this one. I’m just going to accept the diagnosis and move the Fu*k on. I just don’t have the energy or the inclination for the why’s anymore. I’m more than ok with all of it, happy in fact, sometimes very! I’m going to keep on breathing deeply and evenly, sometimes with a strap around my upper ribs and do some fabulous  ball foot work and work with the slo-mo ball to re-train my diaphragm and believe, just believe that all of this, even the sloppy stuff of life is worth it and beautiful and so so full of grace.

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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