I am in Day 15 of a fabulous Yoga Therapist Certification program that will definitely bring some opportunities for a more nuanced energized approach (watch out) to my business; surviving the relentless schedule and the sometimes unhinged group dynamics seem to be my greatest challenge at the moment.
I am here to state quite firmly that yogi communities are really no different than the regular population when responding to stressful situations (very little rest), and group dynamics, (varied personalities and their accompanying baggage when in a large group for a long period of time day after day after day). Oops, I just fell into the judgement trap myself! There are inevitable splinter groups emerging within our group of 56 people; those who think the program sucks and like to sneer at the instructor, those who don’t like the fact that the massage therapist is giving free massages during the sessions, those who believe that the best way to do things is to assert their superiority (in a gentle fashion of course), those who have been here for 15 days, those who arrived on Saturday. In other words, Yikes!
I get kind of quivery and sometimes unbalanced when I am under a lot of stress ( I really hate getting up every single day at 5am), and my default position is usually in my head where I do a quick assesment of the situation, believe I understand it, and withdraw, not literally, to a level of functioning that I hope will help me to rise above it all. It’s a pretty lonely, superior place. And to be quite honest, my assessment skills are usually pretty funky when I’m feeling vulnerable and more than slightly overwhelmed. Thus getting it wrong a lot of the time can be the name of the game. Plus, I just really like people!
So, I’m just going to hang in there and breathe deeply and not retreat this time. I’m doing everything differently with the idea that staying centered and close to my heart will allow me to get the maximum benefits out of each and every moment and help to keep me happy and calm. I’ve developed a routine of self-care that really works for me. I have a lot of lovely friends from home who have my best interest at heart who have upheld and supported me via text, e-mail and cell phone; and most importantly, I have me, in all of my earnestness and with all of my determination, easefully and gently remaining positive, in the moment, connected to a loving heart.
I think it might just be that simple!
Big Namaste from the wild, wooly and wonderful Kripalu!