I spent some time on the phone yesterday with my youngest son G. He’s a fairly hilarious person, even-tempered, able to see the big picture, almost always accomodates the sometimes jagged edges of the person he’s hanging with….., all that good stuff! He’s spending time with my mom dangling right on the edge of mid-coast Maine, soaking up the audacious lobster funness of the place. In order to speak with me via cell phone, he discovered that he has to stand at a certain angle by the phone pole near the coastline and keep his voice modulated at a certain pitch. It doesn’t bother him a bit.
I love this quality in Gareth; and it helped to reinforce the Big practice I have been working on since I arrived at Kripalu, and that is to surrender to the present moment over and over and over again. I find it ironic, but not without the accompanying coincidence, that breathing into and being mindful of the possibility of turning my will and my life over to the Universe has been sometimes way beyond challenging in this crazy, hectic environment. But I must be ready for it, and I am definitely doing it; and I find myself often in situations that are allowing me to remain my fun, grounded and kind self even when others are panicking and reacting negatively all around me.
What has begun to manifest is this quiet and still certainty within me that everything is going to work out exactly as it is meant to, and that my enlightened engagement is not only integral to that prospect, but also adds a vitality to it that reflects the essence of who I am. I am able to bear witness to and remain steadfastly within, the strength and flexibility I have developed as a result of accepting and working the spiritual practice of surrender into my heart-centered being every single day.
Quite honestly, opening and surrendering to grace is the first thing I do when I wake up in the morning, through simple and quick prayer and meditation, but it does not come easily. And I state this with some trepidation as I, quite frankly, don’t want to jinx it, or appear as if I am schlepping some new-agey mushy positive thinking instruction as a method to resolving challenging circumstances in my life. It’s not that; it really unfurls more like freedom or space-giving or the energetic expression of my witness self as a way of becoming more engaged, hopeful and honest to God, a hell of a lot more loving. So, basically, I do it because my life is better because of it, aka I like the results.
There’s the added bonus that I just really really really (emphasis important), respect and believe in myself as Susan Perry, in any given moment, when I surrender to the gracious invitation to connect and transform in love lovingly. It really has made all the difference!
Kudos to G for the reminder.
Big Love and Gratitude to all of you!