Day 221: FINDING MYSELF IN THE MIST OF SURRENDER!

It’s a pretty cool thing to be able to state that this isn’t my first time at Kripalu for an extended stay. The place is funky and edgy and wonderful to the nth degree; but it does have a way of nudging me towards places of self-discovery that I did not even recognize I needed to explore. And I fluctuate between being energized by the idea of it and annoyed by the entire prospect. So in order to ground myself and make the whole spiraly journey even more juicy, I’ve just decided to surrender to it and trust my heart to take me wherever the hell it is I am meant to go.

I don’t know about any of you, but there are real times in my life when I just want to rest in the good growth I’ve already done, kind of just chill out and relax into the safety of the already warm and embraced life that surrounds me without any greater forward motion, no need to find myself any further. Honest to God, I already believe myself to be well and truly naked and borne open! I’m really pretty jazzed about who I am and all of the abundance I am offered up on a daily basis.

But life, as has so far been revealed to me, is a fairly luminous opportunity to step into the power of unknowing in humility with love over and over and over again. And it’s fairly futile to resist. I believe these moments in my life are really small gracious invitations to release myself from any preconceived notions of myself and blossom outward in a way that will ultimately cause an explosively inspiring transformation. Sounds like a big deal, but this time, I’m going to be gentle with myself and approach the whole journey the same way that I do Savasana or Corpse Pose.

At the end of any yoga practice on the mat there is a moment where, after all of the effort, all of the breathing through resistance, the uncovering of emotions, sometimes even the encounter with triumph through strength, there is a time to surrender the physical body to the floor and let the Prana do it’s work. And this is my choice, through this part of my spiritual uncovering at Kripalu; to lie in ease and trust the powerful internal energy, the authentic essence that I have coaxed into manifestation, to do the good unearthing that it is meant to do while I rest. And once it has ended, I will exhale deeply and begin anew: Fresh, no doubt positively turned inside out, eager to spring into action, flush with love!

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Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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