My LIVEBIG365 Love Is Vlog series has not been working out the way that I planned. I imagined 30 perfectly lovely vlogs; each one different, distinct in their own individuality, accompanied by the kind of attention and accolade that would result in even I being bowled over by my own genius. I am laughing as I write this post as I am always, initally, so startled by my own lack of humility. I have forgotten how thoroughly unteachable I can be at times, and how important it is for me to let go of my own ego and allow this experience to manifest fully and expansively in its own unique way.
Being humble, I have often learned the hard way, means being teachable; opening myself up to the flow of the universe and allowing the grace of that moment to express itself fully. And here’s the real kicker, without me, and my desire for a certain outcome, getting in the way of the flow and the process. This acceptance of a gracious, loving presence in my life is not an acquiesence to powerlessness but really an embrace of a certain kind of unschackling of the heart.
I have freedom in my humility as I am not bound up by false expectation, a stubborn desire to have things my own way; and most importantly, I am released from the fear of failure that comes with an oppressive my way or the highway attitude. I feel grateful as I write this, but I must confess, with regard to this vlog series, I came to this conclusion quite reluctantly.
These are the ways the best lessons in my life continue to be learned. So, my present moment remains full of possibility and teachable moments. And I will wait patiently and peacefully, eagerly anticipating the next inspiration, ever hopeful that it will lead me toward an even more serene and loving heart.