In all of my classes I practice back bends; they are serious heart openers and can often produce feelings of vulnerability and exposure. Sometimes, when I come down from some intense backbending of my own, I feel as if I have been on an enormous rollercoaster ride, all discombobulated, breathless and upside down.
I’ve never liked rollercoater rides; and the truth is that it took me a long time to appreciate opening my heart. I think I entered into it the same way I approach most beginnings: one vertebrae at a time. And it’s a pretty delicate process, getting to know myself in this ever-expansive way. I’m going slowly; descending from having been the kind of person who bent her feelings over backwards to conform to what I believed was someone else’s expectations, to meeting my own needs, wants, desires. It’s pretty lovely stuff.
So, I’ll proceed one vertebrae at a time, sometimes laughing out loud with gratitude and joy for the sheer wonder of opening up to myself, my new life and all of the possibility it encompasses. Looking forward to tomorrow.