I have the dubious distinction of being a person who, most of the time, acts and sounds like I know exactly what I’m doing; and to be honest, in terms of the regular day to day stuff, I’m pretty effective. Lately though, I have noticed, that when it comes to the big things I find myself simmering in a vat of unknown, and I’m pretty surprised by how calm and ok I am with all of it, most of the time anyway.

It’s funny how gracious redemptive action can come in many guises. Sometimes for me the package is eerily incomprehensible and I find myself having to return to the basics in order to be able to understand how to muddle my way through it: Prayer and meditation for awareness; journaling dreams and desires as if they already existed for acceptance; and forecasting forward with a trusted friend for action. And a bunch of yoga and breath work on the mat thrown in for good measure.

I don’t mean to sound pedantic, but I have been reassured, uplifted and transformed every single time that I have found myself in an incomprehensible situation and practiced these three simple steps. I want to believe that it is magic, but honestly, I know better. Grace opens up to me when I open up to grace. And grace always finds me and offers me the opportunity to surrender to the flow of the universe and a Power much much greater than myself if I so choose. And when I do life is big and bold and beautiful and fearless. And when I don’t well, I do eventually, usually in more pain than if I had just surrendered in the first place.

So, I’m living Big and sometimes struggling with it. Life is tender toward me in that way and I am grateful for the steps that I have learned over the years to bring things into sharper focus and proper perspective. Redemption, sometimes edgy, often uncompromising, always, ultimately, grand.

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Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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