In my yoga classes there is a pose, uttkatasana (chair pose), that some of my loyal students have hilariously  dubbed the guns and ex-husband pose. It’s a challenging pose that works the entire body in opposite directions and can evoke a lot of negative emotion. It obviously does for me as I bring up, out loud, some of the most negative circumstances of my life while I am in this pose.

Let me be clear, right off the bat, that I don’t think the expression of negative emotion is a bad thing, even in a yoga class. In fact, the yoga I practice can loosen up a lot of, for lack of a better description, seriously tough stuff.  And being aware of this residual negative energy, in spite of how much it might upset me, is a really, really good thing. Ultimately, if I stay in uttkatasana, express and breathe through the pain that I am feeling in the pose, it will help me to be able to relieve my mind, body and spirit of damaging tension, resistance and a lot of ugly pain.  Uttkatasana is an outward expression of the potential for inward transformation. It can also strengthen my quads and abs, and increase flexibility in my shoulders, and has.

So tonight, I encountered some uttkatasana moments off the mat with two of my children who are particularly challenged by some of the choices I’ve made for myself with regard to their father. It was pretty painful for a while and my mind wanted to flee and get out of the situation. Nevertheless, I hung in there, stuck to my guns, articulated my position and breathed into my hurting heart.

And as a result, I became stronger; able to reveal the beauty of who I am in spite of the tension and discomfort surrounding the situation. I listened, told them I loved them both, and fairly quietly stood my ground and believed in the essence of who I had become. This way of being is so fresh and new for me, off the mat, that I can only assume that it is the power and dedication to my practice on the mat that has helped me to reach such a graceful resolution.

I love and believe in the transformative power of yoga. I have been a grateful recipient of its awesome, mysterious gifts. I hope that I am able to help others access their own ability to open to grace, become unstuck and move themselves forward in such a way that peace, prosperity and happiness become the abundant heart-filled themes of their own lives.


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Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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  1. That was very beautiful and inspiring. You’re right that sometimes you just need to breathe through the negative emotion to begin to release it from you life.


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