DAY 64: TA DAH!: FANCY FREE……

I was thinking a lot about me today, and not the regular overly-indulgent self-absorption, but something newer, fresher; more like this buoyant, lighter version of me. I’ve shed a lot of the old stuff that used to hang onto me. At first, the shit just came off in little dribs and drabs. But after awhile, at the time it felt like a really, really long while, all the lies that I told myself, all of the crap and sludge that had built up in me, been heaped upon me, stuff that I allowed to happen, stuff that just happened, junk that I had literally shoved down my throat, started flying off of me. I’d been in the rainstorm of acceptance for a long time at that point and I was getting really wet.

I’m here to tell you it was a good thing, a painful, gut-wrenching, soul-searing, not sure I know how to make it kind of a thing, yet a good, good thing.

And I’m happy to say I’m on the other side, completely out of the rainstorm, and grateful and happy: Gracefully transformed!

I’m celebrating that lovely feeling, that new way of living, with a piece of music I love.

It’s completely improvised, in the moment, joyful, ecstatic even, and magic. It always transports me to some place way, way beyond all that I have ever needed to know.

Much happiness to all of you and thanks for reading and listening.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYxx6Brhm1E

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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