I’m 15 hours late with my blog post for Friday, and quite honestly, I’m not surprised. I’ve started going out on Friday nights, enjoying the company of some really cool people, having fun, (there’s a concept), and I find myself at the end of the evening fairly brain dead. Now, before anyone jumps to conclusions and starts thinking it’s the wine, (2 glasses), I want to state for the record that I believe fun is totally intoxicating.
For me, purely and simply, that is it. Here I am, a middle aged woman in the prime of my life, having shucked off her old oppressive identity, out at a bar that had a great band, yucking it up and having the time of her life. A couple of year’s ago, I would have been shocked to see me there. And, this is not only cause for great celebration, possibly even jubilation, it is also an affirmation of the beauteous amorphous thing that my life is becoming now that I have chosen to think and live big.
It’s me, becoming me: And I am a Friday night Party Animal! It took me almost 50 years to arrive at this most auspicious identity and I am reveling in the buoyant opportunities being free and heart-centered has offered me. I attract like-spirited people. I feel not only safe in their company, but broken open and capable of sharing myself unconditionally. And let me emphasize that there is no risk here, because I am me, being me, feeling really good about me.
Today’s post includes a fairly awkwardly produced video of last night. I recorded it off my iphone, and I think it’s fairly hilarious in that you can hear me over the band and the crowd, in the background commenting on what I’m recording. No award will be won here, but the significance of the moment needed to be memorialized and proferred to the universe. I don’t believe this will be the only version of fun I will share this year. Nevertheless, it is an insight into my first forays of Friday Night Fun and I hope offers a glimpse of how glimmering my life is becoming!