(I’m back in  full force, internet connection repaired, and continuing my commitment to my Manual: 12 Steps to Personal Transformation, with the sixth step, Self-Care. The first five steps were; Surrender, Patience, Yoga On and Off the Mat, Stop, and Community.)

I’m about to begin a 40 Days to Personal Revolution workshop at my affiliate studio, Ananda Yoga, in Mendham NJ and I am struck by how powerful it is for me to use the present tense with this step. It’s a privilege to be able to know that I have shucked off the devil I know (see Day 22,  and feel free and able to move on with my life unencumbered by the daily grind of those lies.

Don’t get me wrong, feeling not good enough or unloveable or unable to achieve my dreams can still rear its ugly little head, but now it’s a red flag that I recognize as a need to institute greater self-care. That’s all the lies ever really were, a false mantra that ran through my head that kept me from being able to access and bear witness to the wispy shimmeriness that lay dormant behind the lies. I didn’t know who or where I was or how to begin or where I even wanted to go

Self-care helped me to find my way back to myself and to grow beyond all that I had ever even been able to imagine for myself. It began, and continues daily, with a simple question: “How do I feel, and what do I want?”  And I address those feelings and needs first. No Excuses. When I first instituted this practice I can remember how selfish, guilty and really downright foreign it felt. Nevertheless, deep within my heart I knew that this question was where I absolutely had to begin.

So start I do, each day, embodying and manifesting the inherent service encompassed within the answers to those two simple questions. And in beginning and flowing, through that process, acknowledging me and the value that I have for myself, I am then able to ask the same question in relation to all of the other relationships that exist for me, every single day.

It is, as the old adage goes, a one day at a time process. And someday’s the road feels very unfamiliar and poorly traveled. There is however, a strong light in me, beaming out from right beside my heart, that exhibits all the signs of great expansive living, if I continue to take care of it. So, care I will, gently and with great reverence for who I am and everything that I am becoming.

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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