I’m hanging out with G watching “Remember the Titans”, a pretty cool football movie for a non-football gal like myself, and I’m in that place that I’ve been in before with posting for the challenge: How to impress. I don’t like it. And I know I have been here in other aspects of my life as well.
The challenge of my challenge is often, for me, to live within my authentic self. Honestly, to access my heart in ways that are new, oftentimes scary, and sometimes so subtle I’m not really sure what they are. But I do know this journey’s about me and I’m sticking with it!
And that’s where I find myself tonight. In that murky, seeing through a glass darkly kind of place, where I’m in the car driving at night and I don’t know the road and my headlights aren’t working. Yet I’m going to get there anyway.
What makes certainty, in spite of the not knowing; faith in the unknown, bravery in the face of a less than clear final destination? For me, the love of the journey, the fabulous support of the Kula and the fact that I’m doing it: One day at a Time.
There’s a swirling Shakti inside of me that’s yearning to wisp toward the connection to the Divine that’s calling it forth. And sometimes the climb seems way too formidable. And yet, I’m going to do it anyway, sometimes shaky, head held high, reaching, extending upward and expanding, filled up with love, climbing that mountain, reaching higher and higher and higher.
It feels Big and Right.