DAY 24: THE STATE OF THE SUSAN

I have had several opportunities today, and I truly believe they were divinely inspired, to take a real gut check and refine, both verbally and spiritually, where I am at on this LiveBig 365 journey and how I am feeling about it. And here’s the really amazing thing about that statement: I’m not sure I’ve ever really been engaged in that kind of question so fully before in my life.

I’m really not trying to be overly dramatic here. What struck me so clearly was that I could stand in my own truth today and gently but passionately articulate who I was, what I was doing and how I was feeling about it. I’ve never really done it before with such a sense of self-assurance and pride. 

So this is what real belief feels like I said to myself while I was calmly explaining to a disgruntled student, the true power of vinyasa yoga: “In transformation on the mat, you might encounter issues that rise up and want to be addressed off the mat. And it’s not always a comfortable feeling.” She wasn’t very happy with my explanation.  I was sorry, but I didn’t try to overcompensate, make it better or explain myself further. Such freedom in simply and quietly answering.

I have somehow shifted toward an understanding that the relationships and connections that I am invited to engage in on a daily basis are mine for the choosing and also, and this is really big for me, mine for the expressing. My personal story is one of vast, deep and sometimes edgy experience that emanates a conviction and commitment to heart-centered transformation. It’s not always easy, most grace-filled principles worth learning well, for me, take time dedication and life-long endurance. And yet, if the circuitous route had been less challenging and time-consuming, I doubt I would be the woman that I am today.

All day long, I practiced what I preach: I stood in my own truth, head held high, shoulders back and down, expressing through the heart, letting my true self shine out, and most importantly, letting go of all that which no longer serves me. There is such strength for me in that posture and in that position.

What a great Big blessing!

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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