When I was first introduced to the devil I know, I was awfully disappointed. My mind had conjured up quite a fearsome, overpowering figure, you know the drill, all that fire and brimstone stuff: Big, ugly nasty character whose immense arsenal of weapons caused tremendous pain. The reality was astoundingly different: Tiny sniveling creature, for some reason with a pointy beard, who possessed a really, really small sword, no fire at all. In fact, the devil I met and ultimately defeated turned out to be the exact opposite of the real big, bold and beautiful me.
This revelation was a real epiphany and serves as a catapult moment in my life, out of the depths of adverse constricted living into a vast, bright, wind whipping through my hair, sometimes hilarious and giddy present and future. I mean, after all, just as an example, I learned how to make mead this weekend and partied with a bunch of really quirky environmentalists. It’s pretty miraculous, really.
Truth is though, no matter how often or long I tried to avoid it, I had to meet my devil face to face in order to take into my heart those lies that I had told myself for so long that held me back from being the person that I knew I was meant to be. In a nutshell, here are the top three lies:
- I’m not good enough .
- I’m completely unloveable.
- I’m one of those people who is just not meant to live the life of her dreams.
Now, surrounding these lies were a bunch of what I felt at the time were really justified righteous support evidence for the lies; negative people, places and things that formed the foundation for the pedestal that my devil sat upon. Frankly, none of it really matters, the truth is, until I owned the lies as lies, that is accepted them as the egregious fallacies that they were, I was never ever going to be able to take the action to rid myself of them. So, I met my devil and ultimately battled him down and out of my life.
It was an excellent, messy, sometimes painful journey that completely transformed me from the inside out. I want to share with you the top tools in my toolbox, some of which I always had and many that I acquired along the way, that uphold, energize and inspire me and have been the practical magic that propelled me forward and that I continue to bring into my life every single day.
- Yoga on and off the mat
- Good Nutrition
Sometimes, the devil that I know reappears in my life, usually when I am hungry, angry, lonely or tired, but the stay is a short one, because I know better now. I no longer believe the lies that I told myself and I know how to take care. I love who I am, how I’m living, who I’m becoming. And that gracious acceptance propels me to a loving action that is infinte and full of beautiful possibilities.
It’s a really BIG thing.