So, I set myself this challenge to Live Big for 366 days (it’s a Leap Year), and sometimes my ego gets in the way. It’s day 14 and I’m starting to talk about jumping out of airplanes before I’m half way through the year! Or, I originally started writing tonight about being cheered on by my friend Fran and thought it wasn’t a “BIG” enough topic.
Now I know there is no sense in that kind of thinking. Nevertheless, I am aware of it as my descent down a slippery slope that reinforces an inner belief about myself that is a complete lie: “I’m not good enough.” And in spite of everything that I have learned over the last couple of years and all that I teach and try to reflect in my life both on and off the mat, I dip my toe in those icy waters, mostly out of habit.
And this awareness is actually really good news. I know that bad habits can be undone. And this kind of habitual behavior, no matter how deeply ingrained it might have initially been, is no longer the scar on my heart that it once was: I’m ready to let it go!
I’ve got a lot of work to do and it is work that I really enjoy. Living Big is about embracing the belief I have in the abundance that the work will manifest, as well as the hope and promise it offers to myself and to all those people I love and to the incomporable and ever-growing Kula that supports me.
And it might even include an airplane jump!
Much gratitude to my friend Fran for cheering me on. And thanks already to all of the fellow LIVEBIG 365 comrades. We are in this together and I cannot tell you how truly Big that is.