DAY 14: THE SLIPPERY SLOPE

So, I set myself this challenge to Live Big for 366 days (it’s a Leap Year), and sometimes my ego gets in the way. It’s day 14 and I’m starting to talk about jumping out of airplanes before I’m half way through the year! Or, I originally started writing tonight about being cheered on by my friend Fran and thought it wasn’t a “BIG” enough topic.

Now I know there is no sense in that kind of thinking. Nevertheless, I am aware of it as my descent down a slippery slope that reinforces an inner belief about myself that is a complete lie: “I’m not good enough.” And in spite of everything that I have learned over the last couple of years and all that I teach and try to reflect in my life both on and off the mat, I dip my toe in those icy waters, mostly out of habit.

And this awareness is actually really good news. I know that bad habits can be undone. And this kind of habitual behavior, no matter how deeply ingrained it might have initially been, is no longer the scar on my heart that it once was: I’m ready to let it go!

I’ve got a lot of work to do and it is work that I really enjoy. Living Big is about embracing the belief I have in the abundance that the work will manifest, as well as  the hope and promise it offers to myself and to all those people I love and to the incomporable and ever-growing Kula that supports me.

And it might even include an airplane jump!

Much gratitude to my friend Fran for cheering me on. And thanks already to all of the fellow LIVEBIG 365 comrades. We are in this together and  I cannot tell you how truly Big that is.

About livebig365

Join me as I dive in to the deep end of the pool and challenge myself to live big and love big. What does that mean? In 2012 , I accepted the invitation to push myself beyond my comfort zone, at least once a day, and engaged and responded to my life, or a given situation in my life, in a way that would normally scare the hell out of me. Why did I do it it? Because it was time time to begin, and I was ready! Each day brought a new revelation, lesson, challenge, encounter, a teaching moment, that revealed to me that living big and loving big are uniquely interconnected. Welcome 2013, the year of lovebig 365. Each post was an expression of love experienced, witnessed, inspired, manifested. It didn't always make sense in the moment, and yet its sheer mystery hopefully evoked a beautiful affirmation of life and all of its shimmery brightness; broken up, lovely to behold, tender and full of purpose. 2014, jagged, bumpy, disjointed posts. 2015, silence, and plenty of growth within that silence. Manifesting 2016: The creation of a gathering place for gratitude. Join in the wavering, audacious, unequivocal fun. 2017: Reflection 2018: POWER, MAGIC, TRANSFORMATION
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