I looked at a new apartment to move into today and I liked it. It’s actually next door plus one from my existing apartment. The big difference is that it has just one bedroom.
And this is a really big difference. The last time I lived on my own, Ronald Reagan had just begun his first Administration. I have been living with and taking care of for almost 30 years!
I have two emotions regarding this move: fear and excitement. I’m afraid because I’m not sure I know how to be me on my own. And yet I’m excited as I truly believe that I’m going to have the freedom to become the Big Me on my own.
I think I’m going to take it one day at a time. I know I have the strength within me to approach this new opportunity in my life with grace and joy.
I also know that sometimes it is going to be challenging and that I will be introduced to new aspects of myself that I might find painful.
Sometimes making the BIG RIGHT choice feels strange and scary. I’m just going to feel the fear and do it anyway because I want to be able to live my biggest life openhearted and shining bright.
And for some funky reason that I guess will be revealed on a different day, this little apartment with the corner fireplace is the place where my Bigness manifests fully.
I’m grateful, a little scared too, but grateful!